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damn my education, i can't find the words to say about the things caught in my mind. always dreaming, never realizing. the in-between girl, trapped in reality while longing for the fantasy. have a thing for Noel Gallagher and obsessed with UK.

Mar 31, 2009

100 Truths

I've been Tagged by Riezkiana Putri via Facebook

1. Last beverage? capuccino blended made by Rahmaa
2. Last phone call? MakhlukBumi Ndut
3. Last text message? Make It Mine
4. Last song you listened to? Nothing Lasts Forever-Maroon 5
5. Last time you cried? whoaa. can't remember

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? hmm.
7. Been cheated on? so far... nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? nope
9. Lost someone special? mmm, if he's not mine, then i couldn't lose him, could i?
10. Been depressed? yep
11. Been drunk? nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. greenish-blue (i dunno the name of the color?!)
13. green
14. grey

THIS PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends ? yep
16. Fallen out of love ? nope
17. Laughed until you cried ? yep!
18. Met someone who changed you? hmm, kinda. i've met someone and i'm in the process of changing
19. Found out who your true friends were? yep
20. Found out someone was talking about you? yes, i guess
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? nope

TRUTH:
23. How many kids do you want to have? 2 will be fine
24. Do you have any pets? nope
25. Do you want to change your name? i'm pretty proud of my name, eventhough it's very common
26. What did you do for your last birthday? studying.. it was in the middle of the middle exam
27. What time did you wake up today? 5am sharp
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping, and then i awaken by the text message from my Make It Mine
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? meet Make It Mine
30. Last time you saw your father? last night
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? i wouldn't change a thing
32. What are you listening to right now? nothing
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Tom Felton. in my dream.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? nothing
36. Whats your real name? Maulida Disa Pratiwi
37. Relationship Status? In a Relationship
39. Male or female? female
40. Elementary? SDN Pamulang Permai 1
41. Middle School? SMPN 1 Pamulang
42. High school? M O O N Z H E R
43. Hair color? black
44. Long or short? kinda long
45. Height? around 160cm
46. Do you have a crush on someone? do you still call it a crush when the person u had crushed on is now yours?
47. What do you like about yourself? i am loved by everyone i love.
48. Piercings? nope
49. Tattoos? nope
50. Righty or lefty? all-righty

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery? once when i was a little baby..couldn't remember myself
52. First piercing? forgot
53. First tattoo? never
54. First best friend? Shahnaz Iriani (she became my best friend since we first met.. about 13 years ago when i was only 6)
55. First sport you joined? don't remember
56. First pet? don't remember either
57. First vacation? Jogjakarta
59. First crush? hey, you :)

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating? nope
62. Drinking? nope
63. I'm about to? type
64. Listening to? the silence of the night
65. Waiting for? get some sleep

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? yeah
67. Want to get married? of course
68. Careers in mind? Psychologist, media-related job

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX OF YOUR CHOOSING?
69. Lips or eyes? eyes
70. Hugs or kisses? hugs and kisses
71. Shorter or taller? taller
72. Older or Younger? older
73. Romantic or spontaneous ? spontaneous
74. Nice stomach or nice arms? nice body :D
75. Tattoos or piercings? neither
76. Sensitive or loud? sensitive
77. Hook-up or relationship? relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant? hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger? big no-no
80. Drank hard liquor? nope
81. Lost glasses/contacts? yep
82. Sex on first date? ABSOLUTELY NOT
83. Broken someone's heart? i think i might
84. Had your own heart broken? yep
85. Been arrested? nope
86. Turned someone down? maybe yes
87. Cried when someone died? YES
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? ..if i said yes, would that be bad?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? most of the time
90. Miracles? occasionally
91. Love at first sight? nope. it's lust at the first sight
92. Heaven? of course yes
93. Santa Claus? nope
94. Kissing on the first date? nope
95. Angels? yep

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? yep, and that person was just leaving.
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? nope
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? yep
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? my soul
100. Who is the most awesome kid ever? don't know

it's open for everyone :)

Mar 27, 2009

berita duka


pagi hari tanggal 27 maret 2009, ciputat kena musibah. danau Situ Gintung bocor, alias tanggulnya jebol. sedih banget gw ngeliatnya. kebetulan danau itu terletak persis banget di belakang kampus gw, jadi kmaren pas gw ngampus gw ngeliat dengan mata kepala gw sendiri, danau di belakang kampus gw surut. bener2 gak ada airnya sama sekali! temen2 gw sampe pada bertanya2, "gw heran, air segitu banyak pada ngilang kemana yak?!". bahkan ada lagi temen gw yang bilang, "wah, asik asik, Ciputat terkenal! gintung terkenal sekarang!". whoa. talk about good-spirited woman. ada aja yang berpikiran kayak gitu. disaat orang-orang lagi fokus ke bencana-nya, dia melihat peristiwa ini dari sisi lain yang lebih positif. hahaa. pertahankan semangatmu, Cid.

untungnya bagi kampus gw adalah, kampus gw terletak di atas danau, jadi walaupun lokasinya paling deket sama danau, kita justru gak kena. tapi malangnya, tuh danau jebolnya ke daerah UMJ dan pemukiman di sekitarnya. malang sekali. kabar terakhir yang gw dapet, korban meninggal udah sampe 91 orang. itu kabar yang gw dapet pagi ini. masih ada kemungkinan nambah, karena tim SAR juga masih mencari-cari korban yang hilang. skarang orang-orang juga udah pada banyak ngebuka posko2 bantuan, temen-temen gw juga banyak yang ikut serta jadi sukarelawan disana.

yang paling bikin gak ngenakin bagi gw mengenai kejadian ini adalah, waktu gw di-sms sodara gw, dan dia bilang ata salah satu dari korban-korban itu adalah kerabat yang gw kenal. dia--alhamdulillah--selamat dari bencana itu. tapi malangnya, ibu, kakak dan adiknya itu nggak. gw sedih banget, mengingat temen gw itu masih kelas 3 SMP, dan lagi sibuk2nya belajar untuk UAN.
buat Syarah, aku turut berduka cita yaa sayang.. tetap sabar dan tetap ikhlas..

Mar 25, 2009

killing time.membunuh waktu.

lagi-lagi, semua acara bentrok dalam satu waktu.
seperti yang sudah-sudah.
dan gw harus memilih diantara ketiganya
knapa gw harus memilih??
knapa gak bisa gw satuin aja waktu buat tiga-tiganya?
keluarga. sahabat. pacar.
sahabat. pacar. keluarga.
pacar. keluarga. sahabat.
aarrgghh

gw kesel. gw sebel. waktu selalu tidak memihak.
ya, waktu tidak memihak manapun.
gw harus memilih, dan gw harus memilih dengan bijaksana.
padahal sengaja sudah gw luangkan waktu kuliah yang padat itu~
untuk apa kalau akhirnya harus disalip acara lain yang lebih penting--semacam pertemuan keluarga?!

kesal. pada diriku sendiri, sebenarnya.
kenapa tidak mau mengerti?
ini bukan masalah hidup-mati
kita masih bisa bertemu lain waktu, seperti yang dia bilang.
tapi kenapa aku masih tidak mau mengerti?
kenapa rasa kesal itu masih ada?

untungnya dia mengerti dan mau mengalah.
kata-katanya menyadarkanku dan membuatku merasa seperti anak kecil yang tidak bisa mendapatkan apa yang diinginkannya.
huhh. i'm a fool.

sedang berusaha menghapus kekesalan dan mencoba untuk santai saja.

gw orang (sok) sibuk!!

well. udah lama banget gw gak update blog yah. maklum, sedang disibukkan oleh tugas-tugas yang--anjrit--makin menggunung.
gw harus 'berterimakasih' sama dekan baru gw yang memberikan kebijakan 'wajib-baca-bagi-mahasiswa' whatsoever. jadinya (hampir) setiap matakuliah gw diwajibkan untuk membaca jurnal berbahasa inggris. gak cukup cuman ngebaca doang, tapi juga harus dimengerti, disimpulkan dan disampaikan di depan kelas--yah, seperti halnya presentasi makalah. just so you know, those were not an ordinary journal--it's a research journal. alias jurnal penelitian. dengan bahasa inggris yang baku dan dengan kata-kata yang susah dimengerti. jangankan itu, kalopun kata2nya gw ngerti juga, gw belom tentu ngerti isi jurnalnya apaan. bahasanya berat banget cuy! ini tuh bahasannya lebih berat daripada textbook2 yang berbahasa inggris! gila baca textbook aja gw sebenernya aga2 males karna bahasanya yang (aga) lebih ribet daripada baca novel. ini lagi disuru menyimpulkan isi jurnal. wedeeewww x|

selain disibukkan dengan masalah jurnal, deadline makalah juga semakin menumpuk. hampir tiap makul disuru bikin kelompok dan disuru bikin makalah. jadi deh tu tiap minggu pastii adaa aja yang dikerjain di kampus. padahal waktu efektif perkuliahan di kampus cuman sampe hari kamis aja, tapi waktu dari senin-kamis itu gak cukup buat kita nyelesein makalah. jadilah jumat, sabtu, bahkan minggu pun gw harus ke kampus untuk menyelesaikan tugas-tugas gw. huff.
nyari waktu luang tuh bener2 susah banget. belom lagi agenda-agenda rapat BEM yang biasanya baru dimulai jam 4 sore, nungguin semua angkatan kelar kuliah. makin jarang aja gw pulang siang.

ohh my dvds, you don't know how i miss you guys so much x))

gila gw ngrasa seminggu ini gw bener2 disibukin ma kuliah.. bahkan waktu gw buat curhat2an ma Septi aja gak bisa karna kita berdua sama2 gk ada waktu luang...nggilani dah.

yah, jadinya yaa begini. sampe blog ini pun terbengkalai. huhuuu T,T


walau bagaimanapun, gw masih tetap semangaaaat!!
gw masih berambisi untuk lulus dg IPK bagus dan nglanjutin kuliah S2 di luar negeri.. Amin!


the truth is, gw sebenernya seneng2 aja sibuk kek gini. rasanya seperti orang penting 8-) heheheeee


Mar 5, 2009

mellow mode: ON

i don't know if it's real or it's just in my head
but i can't stop thinking about you.
you're the first thing i remember when i woke up and the last thing that comes off my mind when i'm trying to sleep.
and one single thing i remember when my mind's not occupied.
even my dreams is haunted by you.
but you're still out there, and i'm still waiting for you to come home.
and missing you is all i can do


all the words above, felt really bull and too much of a crap for me before.
now i really feel that way,
literally.
huff.
so this is what it feels like.
oh Tuhan, betapa aku sedang dimabuk asmara

ih, geli gw
jatuh cinta itu memang membuat orang menjadi gila
kaki di kepala, kepala di kaki (ngutip kata2nya Ariel)

arrgh, cheesy banget sih gw malem ini
abis gw lagi kangen sih, mau diapain dong?
makanya cepet pulang. biar bisa ketemu.


so this mellow-mode can be gone soon.

Mar 3, 2009

My Debut Album



I've been Tagged by my dearest cousin Adhyanhasta via Facebook

How to play:

1 - Open http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random

The first random wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.
(alternatively, if the first article you hit is short, hit Random Article two more times.)

2 - Open http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3

The last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Open http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days

Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4 - Use photoshop/paint or similar to put it all together.

5 - Post it to FB with "My Debut Album" in the "caption" and TAG the friends you want to join in.


you should try it. it's fun!
btw, my album cover is somehow matching with the title of the album :p